Overshadow

There will come a point when your compassion will overshadow your pain. Consider the actual; love has no desire to injure. Consider that they; as they are, will be lacking in your perception for
...well as long as you see them defective, inadequate, and flawed.
 right now; why does that hurt? 

Beyond, perhaps a momentary satisfaction, how to you frame them; in recollection of their worst attributes? Are they what?
Inferior?

  If you deny the honesty of that pettiness, then you've more suffering in store until you can.  Admit love does not want vengeance, payback or retribution; it cultivates no need to be  'right'; only the injured ego does that.
   Peace is a process...it is surrender to the truth. And the truth would be, YOU LOVE.  You love the object; you love the person; you love the situation; you love the conditions, but they are just the frame that obscures your desire  to feel love as present; in a convoluted fashion you're blaming them for you not feeling as light as you had back when you were swimming in that feeling.
 They were not the reason you felt love, but dammit it is so hard to admit that when you feel you have been dismissed, and with that the 'specialness' of how the relationship has flown.

  Special is a separate condition.  There is 'the special' and 'everything
 else' and that is not the truth.  Even with a God like experience, no
 matter how many times crying out in bliss...Oooooh God, it is momentary. We compare our war wounds with everyone else and want to be the consummate 'victim of love'; where we didn't get to finish our journey. They, who held your hearts-breath, were a great assist to you. But EVIDENCE demonstrates that you and they were not suited for the daunting challenge of forever.  Perpetual growing whispers move along.  Their journey is different. Just as yours is.  The differences in cherished values and principals will reveal that.  Why point fingers at the differences when they are serving the very purpose of your quest.  They have a need to learn confidence in themselves; to feel worthy and deserving. As a contrast, you are not what they need to take those steps. You can't feed steak to infants.

 As you have been blessed to see that you are worthy and know that you want to love with no holds barred, that is a great thing to know.  Don't get wrapped up about it not being present with someone else or  as you would have it.  That will never be fulfilled.  Relax and be aware of what you desire, then allow it to come as you are being complete and loving absent of need to have someone be the reason, or applaud your performance.

 Love yourself first....you'll draw your complement when least
 expected...because you were having the time of your life....your life's
 playmate found you where the joy of you was present.  You have nothing to believe. You have nothing to trust.  Just practice peace and awareness of what you do enjoy...and slowly you'll be there all the time.