Footing

I went to the foot doc and he told me I can dispense with my temporary blow up foot aide (don't ask). And I'm so happy!

Then, it's on to spot painting the raw wood on the deck in preparations for a long winter. We've decided to change the color from forest green to the brick-brown that is commonly found around the country...change is good.

let's see what else?

Oh here's a hoot. I applied to Boeing last night only to find out today that they're laying off 12,000 (in anticipation of Obamacare impact on the profit margin). So I guess I can NOT hold my breath on that one.

I was thinking (around the time I was liberated from my foot aid) how little it takes for any of us (or at least me) to be happy. A few more coins in our pocket, a little more free time...I'm reminded of a very good saying.

Ours is a world of wonder.

and to look beyond the surface of that, and get to its pulsating cores.

Parallel to that was the recognition with long-term acquaintances masquerading as friendship. And I take full responsibility for the deception. I didn't give non-participation a second glance, I just brushed off those occasions I had put a burden on a relationship only to come up dry. "Oh well, not everyone is as giving" I'd tell myself and keep those who did not respond to need with care.

I'm past that and can report I don't need filler as substitute for friends. That doesn't mean everyone I call friend MUST come running, but you know they need to at least make the gesture. When I've mentioned I was looking for work, those long-term (and on occasion lover) relationships that went mute....well, that investment has been exhausted. Do I wish the silent ones well? Do I curse them, hope for harm to befall? Nope...I allow them to sift back into the blank ordinariness of the surroundings and let that be as it is....changed. Right there with my once bestest friend from the 3rd Grade Billy Brown. 

I can still see his mischievous grin and we got into SOOOOOO much trouble back then. But for now, I'll cherish those who feed me as I feed them