Ambition accompanied by Disaster

  What matters in our pace of living is how we feel. 

Whether that’s about success, comfort, or progress.  Without feeling, we are listless and performing rituals of habit.  I’ve been alerted by my busy pursuits that I could make excuses for my blindness, for my inattention to what matters.  Where is my reason? In a philosophical measure, that’d be ‘purpose’.  I’ll get to that as soon as I find the time to consider where to get off the interstate.

   I’m cautioned by abstractions that keep me from focusing my will.  Should I find comfort in similarities I see in others? In the same conditions of confusion  that are pantomime to genuine?  We do our best under the conditions we find one another; then glean some kind of security in the familiar glossy approach to life.  Superficial and shallow is not about intent, it’s about execution.  Sorry if I step on your toes, but I am dancing as fast as I can. I consider myself a good person because after all, I’m only trying to find happiness; just like you.

   The scripts have all been written in so many variations that we’d be sicken by the truth when we realize we’ve seen this movie before; but I like the Hollywood version better than my life.  After all, can’t I have it all?  Why not?  If I follow the path others take shouldn’t I obtain the same rewards?

   Sublime promises of salvation support a deeper addiction to lack, just as it can be said the same is true for institutionalized unaccountability.  Not thinking about feeling better means avoiding the responsibility for the ultimate outcome; that may not be concert with the Burger King seduction into having it your way, but disappointments come with illusions.  What has been illusive is an insatiable desire for power. 

   Sex has our society by its throat; women adversaries to the males not out of historical rolls, but competition for dominance based on a collective fear over not getting a fair share; can’t count on anyone or anything that will guarantee safe besides hard cash.  So at all cost, have plenty of that, and if by chance you find someone with more than you have, use your guile to abrogate them to your cause.